David Fertik
In 1961, Mr. Ashcom looked at me and in his nasally mid-western voice asked, "Mr. Fertik, what can you tell me about the Nancys?" I quickly flashed through Nancy Ernst, Nancy Falik, Shapiro, Cunningham; we're they all Breck girls? I replied with his twang, " The Nancys?" Now I should known something was amiss, Louis Bolono broke out in histerical laughter which even made the calm cool Carole Kutner join in.
Mr. Ashcom was annoyed with me and exploded, The Nancys, Nancy Germany, Hitler!
Early June 2015, Arnold and I are on a personal tour with our guide in Mitte Berlin, Unter den Linden and The Brandenberg Gate giving us the tragic history as portrayed by this War shocked area, 80% had been destroyed by bombing, 1944-45. He had a 3-ring binder of photos from 1930-1990 and always from the same angles at which we were standing. Arnold, born 1933, the year Hitler took power was in heaven and tears, seeing the places he had read about, heard on the radio or seen in newsreel at the movie. I was in hell, depressed and horrified. TMI! TMI!
Since I was a chiild I would run away from depression or shock by making a joke of the situation. So every time our guide said the word "Nazis" I would scream in my head, "Nancys!"
However, The Holacaust Memorial near The Brandenburg Gate was one of the most powerful pieces of public art I have ever seen. Two football fields wide filled with 2707 concrete "headstones" like a cemetery. The 2X6' dark gray markers in grids started as 6" to 15" high, like caskets, but got taller as we walked toward the center. A 25 foot depression lin the center like a drain in the middle of this "cemetery". The headstones were now 15-20' high. This felt like prison or concentration camp. I turned around to look at Arnold who was following me, the narrow alley/canyon behind me was empty. Arnold had disappeared. With hundres of "alleys" and no cellphone transmissions, I felt abandoned and worried about my spouse's wellbeing. Could some hiding neo-Nazis kill an 82 year-old gay Jew?
Later we saw the ground above the bunker where Hitler committed suicide. A few block away was a piece of the Berlin wall, and an excavated tunnel or jail next to the Albert Speer's designed Gehring"s headquarters, which still standing. It was all too much for me. So inside my head I sang an old Jewish summer camp song - (Do you remember stories around the campfires when our cousellors would try to scare us with stories about Nazi hicks who were out in the dark planning to kill us?) I sang to the tune of "Col. Bogey's March", from "Bridge on the River Kwai"...
"Hitler he only had one ball, Ghering had two but very small, Himler was somewhat similar, bur then Goebels had no balls at all!" (repeat 2X) A paliative c.1961.
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